The Miracle of Chanukkah

      Usually when we think of Hashems miracles we try to picture in our minds grandeur events. The splitting of the  sea  or mountains rise for smooth desert passage,  destruction of our enemies, success when heavily out-numbered in batttle, or the sun stands still , the dead becoming alive, huge swarms of locusts,etc.. What is so special about a dinky flame on a wick tat I can extinguish instantaneously with my fingertip?
      In order to understand the significance we must first recognize that the goal of the Greeks was not to kill all the Jews  but to kill and extinguish the Torah!  They wanted to prove the Torah wrong by desecrating all the oil and say," see there is no Torah in the world" They distinctly sought out every flask of pure Beis Hamikdash quality oil and contaminated all of it.
      We now have our two opposite elements of  Torah flame vs the Greek darkness. The flame is either  lit or the flame is out completely out. The Sfas Emes says that darkness ("cHoshecht") refers to the Greeks. They closed the eyes( Hech-Shika Eyneyhem) of Yisroel. They closed our eyes against and attacked the Torah itself.
        These Greeks were no dummies. We are talking about the most intellectual persons and secular minds who possessed intellect (cHoChma), Knowledge (Da-as) and claimed the world and its nature have no truth in Torah. These great minds collectively attacked our direct roots in Torah . They had there own explanations of Gods, astrology, and the nature of the world. But hey brazenness wouldn't allow them to see the truth, their goal was to obliterate and annihilate  the Torah from the world.
       What the Greeks did't realize is that our beautiful Torah is designed by constantly renewing and creating (His-cHadishut). We say every day before Shema, (HamicHadesh BicHol Yom Tamid Maaseh Bireshis) Every day consistently! Hashem had to show the world in a new fashion that the tiniest little flame can defy nature, intellectual secular thought, astrology, science, and keep our flame of Torah and connection to Hashem kindled forever.
       With this specific miracle of the oil was exactly what the Greeks were looking to contaminate. Hashem took direct revenge on the Greeks. With the miracle of the flames kindled for 7 miraculous days. Hashem counteraction was direct revenge by creating this physical miracle of flame. This defiance of nature, a new idea, was something never contemplated and never thought possible before. This new spark was directly aimed at our flame, our inner light and connection as well as the Dagger against the Greeks ideological mission.
       We were not in need of grandeur heroic nature altering display. Hashem showed us with the most subtle and the most gentle of gestures. A tiny flame. Vulnerable to a sudden breeze. Yes  this was extremely vulnerable on two fronts: 1)the delicacy of a flame on the wick. and 2) it was the absolute  last pure olive oil of the world and from the Cohen Gadol's private stash.
         Hashem amazing and gentle miracle was an extraordinary  way beyond human contemplation pointing to both our inner flames and the Goyims desecrating ambitions. Hashem designed his plan in order to keep us connected and counteract the opposition to His Torah.
          We as humans and  Yidin are prone to mishaps. We continue to struggle and sometimes fall. We must take the initiative and opportunity always renew and rekindle ourselves  within the HiscHadshut  of natural renewal. Weather it be the new day, week, month, year, or any other human cycle, we need to grab ourselves and rebuild ourselves from vulnerable lit wick into a blazing strong flame!
Chanukah Sameach

Tehillim for our Soldiers in Israel: Jews fight with their words הַקֹּל קוֹל יַעֲקֹב, וְהַיָּדַיִם, יְדֵי עֵשָׂו

When Israel is at War

When Israel is at war, the rabbis ask the entire Jewish people to say extra chapters of Tehillim (Psalms), most notably chapters 20, 83, 121, 130 and 142. 
We know that Eisav is a man of the sword and Jews fight with their words as it says
 הַקֹּל קוֹל יַעֲקֹב, וְהַיָּדַיִם, יְדֵי עֵשָׂו

Even though we are not physically fighting the war we can still be soldiers of Hashem's army . Our words are like arrows (bullets) and don't think for one second that they have no influence. Perhaps your tefilah permeated in heaven which caused a rocket to divert and land out in the field and not landing the other way around ending with tragedy.    

Psalms Chapter 20תְּהִלִּים

א  לַמְנַצֵּחַ, מִזְמוֹר לְדָוִד.	1 For the Leader. A Psalm of David.
ב  יַעַנְךָ יְהוָה, בְּיוֹם צָרָה;    יְשַׂגֶּבְךָ, שֵׁם אֱלֹהֵי יַעֲקֹב.	2 The LORD answer thee in the day of trouble; the name of the God of Jacob set thee up on high;
ג  יִשְׁלַח-עֶזְרְךָ מִקֹּדֶשׁ;    וּמִצִּיּוֹן, יִסְעָדֶךָּ.	3 Send forth thy help from the sanctuary, and support thee out of Zion;
ד  יִזְכֹּר כָּל-מִנְחֹתֶךָ;    וְעוֹלָתְךָ יְדַשְּׁנֶה סֶלָה.	4 Receive the memorial of all thy meal-offerings, and accept the fat of thy burnt-sacrifice; Selah
ה  יִתֶּן-לְךָ כִלְבָבֶךָ;    וְכָל-עֲצָתְךָ יְמַלֵּא.	5 Grant thee according to thine own heart, and fulfil all thy counsel.
ו  נְרַנְּנָה, בִּישׁוּעָתֶךָ--    וּבְשֵׁם-אֱלֹהֵינוּ נִדְגֹּל; יְמַלֵּא יְהוָה,    כָּל-מִשְׁאֲלוֹתֶיךָ.	6 We will shout for joy in thy victory, and in the name of our God we will set up our standards;{N} the LORD fulfil all thy petitions.
ז  עַתָּה יָדַעְתִּי--    כִּי הוֹשִׁיעַ יְהוָה, מְשִׁיחוֹ: יַעֲנֵהוּ, מִשְּׁמֵי קָדְשׁוֹ--    בִּגְבֻרוֹת, יֵשַׁע יְמִינוֹ.	7 Now know I that the LORD saveth His anointed; {N} He will answer him from His holy heaven with the mighty acts of His saving right hand.
ח  אֵלֶּה בָרֶכֶב,    וְאֵלֶּה בַסּוּסִים; וַאֲנַחְנוּ,    בְּשֵׁם-יְהוָה אֱלֹהֵינוּ נַזְכִּיר.	8 Some trust in chariots, and some in horses; {N} but we will make mention of the name of the LORD our God.
ט  הֵמָּה, כָּרְעוּ וְנָפָלוּ;    וַאֲנַחְנוּ קַּמְנוּ, וַנִּתְעוֹדָד.	9 They are bowed down and fallen; but we are risen, and stand upright.
י  יְהוָה הוֹשִׁיעָה:    הַמֶּלֶךְ, יַעֲנֵנוּ בְיוֹם-קָרְאֵנוּ.	10 Save, LORD; let the King answer us in the day that we call. {P}

Psalms Chapter 83תְּהִלִּים

א  שִׁיר מִזְמוֹר לְאָסָף.	1 A Song, a Psalm of Asaph.
ב  אֱלֹהִים אַל-דֳּמִי-לָךְ;    אַל-תֶּחֱרַשׁ וְאַל-תִּשְׁקֹט אֵל.	2 O God, keep not Thou silence; hold not Thy peace, and be not still, O God.
ג  כִּי-הִנֵּה אוֹיְבֶיךָ, יֶהֱמָיוּן;    וּמְשַׂנְאֶיךָ, נָשְׂאוּ רֹאשׁ.	3 For, lo, Thine enemies are in an uproar; and they that hate Thee have lifted up the head.
ד  עַל-עַמְּךָ, יַעֲרִימוּ סוֹד;    וְיִתְיָעֲצוּ, עַל-צְפוּנֶיךָ.	4 They hold crafty converse against Thy people, and take counsel against Thy treasured ones.
ה  אָמְרוּ--לְכוּ, וְנַכְחִידֵם מִגּוֹי;    וְלֹא-יִזָּכֵר שֵׁם-יִשְׂרָאֵל עוֹד.	5 They have said: 'Come, and let us cut them off from being a nation; that the name of Israel may be no more in remembrance.'
ו  כִּי נוֹעֲצוּ לֵב יַחְדָּו;    עָלֶיךָ, בְּרִית יִכְרֹתוּ.	6 For they have consulted together with one consent; against Thee do they make a covenant;
ז  אָהֳלֵי אֱדוֹם, וְיִשְׁמְעֵאלִים;    מוֹאָב וְהַגְרִים.	7 The tents of Edom and the Ishmaelites; Moab, and the Hagrites;
ח  גְּבָל וְעַמּוֹן, וַעֲמָלֵק;    פְּלֶשֶׁת, עִם-יֹשְׁבֵי צוֹר.	8 Gebal, and Ammon, and Amalek; Philistia with the inhabitants of Tyre;
ט  גַּם-אַשּׁוּר, נִלְוָה עִמָּם;    הָיוּ זְרוֹעַ לִבְנֵי-לוֹט סֶלָה.	9 Assyria also is joined with them; they have been an arm to the children of Lot. Selah
י  עֲשֵׂה-לָהֶם כְּמִדְיָן;    כְּסִיסְרָא כְיָבִין, בְּנַחַל קִישׁוֹן.	10 Do Thou unto them as unto Midian; as to Sisera, as to Jabin, at the brook Kishon;
יא  נִשְׁמְדוּ בְעֵין-דֹּאר;    הָיוּ דֹּמֶן, לָאֲדָמָה.	11 Who were destroyed at En-dor; they became as dung for the earth.
יב  שִׁיתֵמוֹ נְדִיבֵימוֹ, כְּעֹרֵב וְכִזְאֵב;    וּכְזֶבַח וּכְצַלְמֻנָּע, כָּל-נְסִיכֵימוֹ.	12 Make their nobles like Oreb and Zeeb, and like Zebah and Zalmunna all their princes;
יג  אֲשֶׁר אָמְרוּ, נִירְשָׁה לָּנוּ--    אֵת, נְאוֹת אֱלֹהִים.	13 Who said: 'Let us take to ourselves in possession the habitations of God.'
יד  אֱלֹהַי, שִׁיתֵמוֹ כַגַּלְגַּל;    כְּקַשׁ, לִפְנֵי-רוּחַ.	14 O my God, make them like the whirling dust; as stubble before the wind.
טו  כְּאֵשׁ תִּבְעַר-יָעַר;    וּכְלֶהָבָה, תְּלַהֵט הָרִים.	15 As the fire that burneth the forest, and as the flame that setteth the mountains ablaze;
טז  כֵּן, תִּרְדְּפֵם בְּסַעֲרֶךָ;    וּבְסוּפָתְךָ תְבַהֲלֵם.	16 So pursue them with Thy tempest, and affright them with Thy storm.
יז  מַלֵּא פְנֵיהֶם קָלוֹן;    וִיבַקְשׁוּ שִׁמְךָ יְהוָה.	17 Fill their faces with shame; that they may seek Thy name, O LORD.
יח  יֵבֹשׁוּ וְיִבָּהֲלוּ עֲדֵי-עַד;    וְיַחְפְּרוּ וְיֹאבֵדוּ.	18 Let them be ashamed and affrighted for ever; yea, let them be abashed and perish;
יט  וְיֵדְעוּ--    כִּי-אַתָּה שִׁמְךָ יְהוָה לְבַדֶּךָ: עֶלְיוֹן,    עַל-כָּל-הָאָרֶץ.	19 That they may know that it is Thou alone whose name is the LORD, {N} the Most High over all the earth. {P}

Psalms Chapter 121תְּהִלִּים

א  שִׁיר, לַמַּעֲלוֹת: אֶשָּׂא עֵינַי, אֶל-הֶהָרִים--    מֵאַיִן, יָבֹא עֶזְרִי.	1 A Song of Ascents. {N} I will lift up mine eyes unto the mountains: from whence shall my help come?
ב  עֶזְרִי, מֵעִם יְהוָה--    עֹשֵׂה, שָׁמַיִם וָאָרֶץ.	2 My help cometh from the LORD, who made heaven and earth.
ג  אַל-יִתֵּן לַמּוֹט רַגְלֶךָ;    אַל-יָנוּם, שֹׁמְרֶךָ.	3 He will not suffer thy foot to be moved; He that keepeth thee will not slumber.
ד  הִנֵּה לֹא-יָנוּם, וְלֹא יִישָׁן--    שׁוֹמֵר, יִשְׂרָאֵל.	4 Behold, He that keepeth Israel doth neither slumber nor sleep.
ה  יְהוָה שֹׁמְרֶךָ;    יְהוָה צִלְּךָ, עַל-יַד יְמִינֶךָ.	5 The LORD is thy keeper; the LORD is thy shade upon thy right hand.
ו  יוֹמָם, הַשֶּׁמֶשׁ לֹא-יַכֶּכָּה;    וְיָרֵחַ בַּלָּיְלָה.	6 The sun shall not smite thee by day, nor the moon by night.
ז  יְהוָה, יִשְׁמָרְךָ מִכָּל-רָע:    יִשְׁמֹר, אֶת-נַפְשֶׁךָ.	7 The LORD shall keep thee from all evil; He shall keep thy soul.
ח  יְהוָה, יִשְׁמָר-צֵאתְךָ וּבוֹאֶךָ--    מֵעַתָּה, וְעַד-עוֹלָם.	8 The LORD shall guard thy going out and thy coming in, from this time forth and for ever. {P}

Psalms Chapter 130תְּהִלִּים

א  שִׁיר הַמַּעֲלוֹת: מִמַּעֲמַקִּים קְרָאתִיךָ    יְהוָה.	1 A Song of Ascents. Out of the depths have I called Thee, O LORD.
ב  אֲדֹנָי,    שִׁמְעָה בְקוֹלִי: תִּהְיֶינָה אָזְנֶיךָ, קַשֻּׁבוֹת--    לְקוֹל, תַּחֲנוּנָי.	2 Lord, hearken unto my voice; let Thine ears be attentive to the voice of my supplications.
ג  אִם-עֲו‍ֹנוֹת תִּשְׁמָר-יָהּ--    אֲדֹנָי, מִי יַעֲמֹד.	3 If Thou, LORD, shouldest mark iniquities, O Lord, who could stand?
ד  כִּי-עִמְּךָ הַסְּלִיחָה--    לְמַעַן, תִּוָּרֵא.	4 For with Thee there is forgiveness, that Thou mayest be feared.
ה  קִוִּיתִי יְהוָה, קִוְּתָה נַפְשִׁי;    וְלִדְבָרוֹ הוֹחָלְתִּי.	5 I wait for the LORD, my soul doth wait, and in His word do I hope.
ו  נַפְשִׁי לַאדֹנָי--    מִשֹּׁמְרִים לַבֹּקֶר, שֹׁמְרִים לַבֹּקֶר.	6 My soul waiteth for the Lord, more than watchmen for the morning; yea, more than watchmen for the morning.
ז  יַחֵל יִשְׂרָאֵל, אֶל-יְהוָה:    כִּי-עִם-יְהוָה הַחֶסֶד; וְהַרְבֵּה עִמּוֹ פְדוּת.	7 O Israel, hope in the LORD; for with the LORD there is mercy, and with Him is plenteous redemption.
ח  וְהוּא, יִפְדֶּה אֶת-יִשְׂרָאֵל--    מִכֹּל, עֲו‍ֹנֹתָיו.	8 And He will redeem Israel from all his iniquities.

Psalms Chapter 142תְּהִלִּים

א  מַשְׂכִּיל לְדָוִד; בִּהְיוֹתוֹ בַמְּעָרָה    תְפִלָּה.	1 Maschil of David, when he was in the cave; a Prayer.
ב  קוֹלִי, אֶל-יְהוָה אֶזְעָק;    קוֹלִי, אֶל-יְהוָה אֶתְחַנָּן.	2 With my voice I cry unto the LORD; with my voice I make supplication unto the LORD.
ג  אֶשְׁפֹּךְ לְפָנָיו שִׂיחִי;    צָרָתִי, לְפָנָיו אַגִּיד.	3 I pour out my complaint before Him, I declare before Him my trouble;
ד  בְּהִתְעַטֵּף עָלַי, רוּחִי--    וְאַתָּה, יָדַעְתָּ נְתִיבָתִי: בְּאֹרַח-זוּ אֲהַלֵּךְ--    טָמְנוּ פַח לִי.	4 When my spirit fainteth within me--Thou knowest my path-- in the way wherein I walk have they hidden a snare for me.
ה  הַבֵּיט יָמִין, וּרְאֵה--    וְאֵין-לִי מַכִּיר: אָבַד מָנוֹס מִמֶּנִּי;    אֵין דּוֹרֵשׁ לְנַפְשִׁי.	5 Look on my right hand, and see, for there is no man that knoweth me; I have no way to flee; no man careth for my soul.
ו  זָעַקְתִּי אֵלֶיךָ,    יְהוָה: אָמַרְתִּי, אַתָּה מַחְסִי;    חֶלְקִי, בְּאֶרֶץ הַחַיִּים.	6 I have cried unto Thee, O LORD; I have said: 'Thou art my refuge, my portion in the land of the living.'
ז  הַקְשִׁיבָה, אֶל-רִנָּתִי--    כִּי-דַלּוֹתִי-מְאֹד: הַצִּילֵנִי מֵרֹדְפַי--    כִּי אָמְצוּ מִמֶּנִּי.	7 Attend unto my cry; for I am brought very low; deliver me from my persecutors; for they are too strong for me.
ח  הוֹצִיאָה מִמַּסְגֵּר, נַפְשִׁי--    לְהוֹדוֹת אֶת-שְׁמֶךָ: בִּי, יַכְתִּרוּ צַדִּיקִים--    כִּי תִגְמֹל עָלָי.	8 Bring my soul out of prison, that I may give thanks unto Thy name; the righteous shall crown themselves because of me; for Thou wilt deal bountifully with me.

The main media outlets would never show this image of Israeli soldiers covering Arab children in Gaza from danger

The main media outlets would never show this image of Israeli soldiers covering Arab children in Gaza from danger. Please say tehillim and learn at least one mishna daily for the safety of our soldiers.

Nov 13,2012 daily ledger and my daily torah learning

Nov 13, 2012 Tuesday.
Alarm rings 7:20 AM, Open my eyes,  Modeh Ani , jump out of bed, wash hands,  wake kids a few times for bus. Breakfast  eggs and coco pebbles. Ozzy happened to not take a nap the day before so he went to bed early last night, so he was up early and awoke with the other kids. Bus top, walk coco, change Ozzy make bottle. Lay back down 7:55 AM. Say shema bizmano and sleep till almost 10 am. Yikes! Wake up lay tefilin, daven,. Say the daily Aliyah in the weeks parsha:  yaakov leaving avimelech , digging the 4 wells (their names  Eisek, Sitnah, are apparent in the second line of 42 letter name Ana Bkoach). People couldn't tell diff be Abraham and Yizchok bc they looked so alike and humans appearance didn’t age, no wrinkles until now. People thought Yitzchak was Avraham  bc Hashem made their facial features similar. Yitzchak was 100x fold successful in his harvest so he was very rich and starting to overshadow Avimelech. Avimelech coveted rivka and everyone knew she had no children with Yitzchak so they left avimelech.   Perhaps people thought Yitzchok was unviable and not Rivka. Now that they were gone yizhok could be the only one who conceived with Rivka. The people wouldn't think it was avimelechs child. Avrahom Died 5 years before his time  so he wouldn't see the evil ways of asav.
…Wrapped up my Tefilin and Talis, Washed up caught bus to train. Learned rashi on paraha while waiting on corner with my iphone. Said Tehillim tikun haklai on train. Very meaningful today and took me the entire 22 minute ride ( it can be said in 5-7 min fast). Went to safe picked up goods for the day. Bought marlboros and a box of donuts for Carlos the polisher who was kind enough to buy me coffee last week ... Dropped and picked up a few jobs for my dad , Waited for elevator in my building 71W and pulled out my iphone.I just took upon myself another small task of halacha yomi so looked up todays halacha (my second day of starting Halacha yomi): You can't ask for blessing for business in numbers or inventory. You cant say for example  “this business should have 100 pcs of inventory ,but one should only mispalel for a general request for blessing. Yesterday's halacha was more interesting. It dealt dealt with proper use for shul and it's building . The halacha depends on how it benefits the kahal.

Elevator doors open and I kiss the mezuzah on the door post to my outer office door.  Ta and I dealt with a particularly odd customer situation. Yossi the jeweler  downstairs had a call for a 30k emerald 2.5. The owner of the stone is in the DDC club who don't deal with nor have have patience for retail customers. He gave my dad a hard time just showing the stone and wanted a $500 ridiculous “viewing fee”. He ended up coming  to our office to show trhe stone to the customer, who didn't appreciate the unnecessary rude pressure. Not to mention the stone had nicks from over the yrs and needed repair. All the uncertainty the customer had to commit to a stone on the spot under pressure and needed rework scared this guy off. Customer passed. It almost seemed like the owner specifically didn’t want to sell the stone…?  Otherwise 2 nice calls today 1 for asscher 7 ct eternity band and 2^nd was a repeat customer for studs.

Pamela and I reached out to a yoetzet halacha for out nida questions after her recent unfortunate andd heart breaking episode where we lost the baby and not to mention Pamela herself gave us a huge scare losing 2pints of blood that night. Hopefully we can follow the Halacha stricter to the law (eventhough over the years we have kept taharas hamishpacha) inorder to  conceive a child within the halchas parameters. The past few weeks have been crazy physically and emotionally but now it's time to reestablish some concrete structure and get back on track. In the afternoon I gave $18 to tzedaka as I try to give a little at least once a day.  I do intend to go to mikvah tomorrow as a back on track gesture and clear my negative demons, for the time being ,that battle me 24/7 in the toughest daily battle. I hope she wants to improve together with me in this matter as I do, and in every other matter too. We have become ten times closer lately and I know that she will feel its TRUTH and its structure ,and its importance to follow properly as IT IS  the key to my sanity, both physical and spiritual. Is that selfish of me? Sorry if so but the torah does want a husband to cleave to his wife. I also watched some world news about Israel retaliating to During Syria shell spillover the border into Israel. Are they doing it Intentionally?  Maybe
I Davened mincha at 4:00 PM with good kavana at Dykman’s minyan, jam packed. Dad left early for JEC car pool. Watched some paraha gematria and read some parsha drav Torah… Caught 6:25 PM train home ( got on the correct train tonight since last night I tried to leave early and on the train got carried in thought regarding Brit Milah kavana. I ended up in Tarry town 20 miles north of my stop and finally arrived home 3 hrs from when I left the office). I used the (normal ride 22 min) train ride read my tehillim chapters 41-45… got home kissed Pamela , ate rice for dinner, Did Chumash homework with Kobe about lot and melachim in  chaye sarah.  Kobe Ozzy and I Then we watched the Knicks as a treat start season 5 and 0 best in the League while mikaela showed me her new hoola hoop tricks… Then took a bath with Ozzy got kids ready for bed. Davened maariv Read a post about how now tha Obama won the election he will totally turn on Israel and the us economy is predicted to tank very low.

Once everyone was asleep I Prepared for my shiur with papa. Checked back of papa’s papa gemorah for meforshim on makkot 22b. Learning about striking 40 lashes or 39. Bimispar Arbaim and not Arbaim alone leaves the way to darshun only 39. Gemorah says How Dumb are people that they stand up when a sefer Torah is taken out But not stand for a Talmud chacham when the rabbi is only trying to lessen the sentence to 39, not give the harsh 40 of the torah. I Looked up and found a source for amazing Dvar Torah that papa I think came up with on his own about our gemorah in Makkot. Just before this mishna of 39 vs 40 rav yoshiA and a gemorah in bechorot 33a rashi divrei hamschil “Vieeduch” where rashi says I don't know where to find him rav Oshiya. That's bc in makkot rashi passed and his son I. Law wrote. commentary. Can it be that rashi  in bechorot wasn't farmiar with our gemarah in makkot? Rashi learned 10 times shas before writing his commentary?  I took a picture of the page and will show papa איש. אהרון יוחנן שןופלד. That he came up with this pirush.

Eli and I had an hour or two long conversation since he is moving to Alaska for his wife's temp job. He is learning guitar so I showed him a scale and he nailed it. Good job. He has potential. Then I said sham al hamita and laid with a crying Ozzy while he squished and squirmed until finally falling back asleep Finally now it's 2:28am and I am exhausted especially since I was up also last night till 2am looking for deeper meaning into the torah and my life.  I do wish constantly that I can find more active ways to do chesed for others on a daily basis.

Hurricane Sandy In Our Times in the Torah & Gemara, Caused b/c of Loshon Hara

Hurricane Sandy In Our Times in the Torah and Gemara, Caused b/c of Loshon Hara

SO it seems that all of theose 5772 predictions and numerous gematrios leading to 5772 were off...? or maybe you have to add another year for the kollel? No one knows for sure but it is extremely dangerous and detrimental towards your emunah to have a date or deadline in mind. Yes it seems from current events that this is it , but havent previous generations done the same. Without being able to know what future times bring the mind is grounded with the worlds current abilities and status.

It is extremely important for us to yearn and anticipate the Geulah but to do so in a way that keeps us strong in faith and that does not compromize our emunah.
I personally yearn every day and can truly say that I am ready and I am continuously training my mind to take us through the thresh-hold of the new world order of Moshiach and Malchus Hashem.However, I also need to keep myself grounded to embrace the possibility that the geulah MAY NOT comein my life-time. BUt even so, I still anticipate him and embed this love to my children since if Moshiach does not come in my time my children will be of the same sate of mind as I am as the ultimate redemption will surely come within our, our children, or granhildrens life-time.

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The inner Neshama Unlocked and Activated

We all have the keys, but so very few make use of them to

unlock and then make use of the mind, healing it and

strengthening it, allowing it to become the tool for which it was designed. The code waits

safely inside our DNA, waiting to be activated.....

just like in Transformers??

Ananei- Hakavod? Picture of funnel-like Clouds over NYC 7-18-12

This image was taken from a plane on July 19, 2012 over New York  City. It's not a tornado! just a cloud funnel. How strange...?

The advanced world of today predicted in Daniel 12:4.

ד  וְאַתָּה דָנִיֵּאל, סְתֹם הַדְּבָרִים וַחֲתֹם הַסֵּפֶר--עַד-עֵת קֵץ; יְשֹׁטְטוּ רַבִּים, וְתִרְבֶּה הַדָּעַת.

4 But thou, O Daniel, shut up the words, and seal the book, even to the time of the end; many shall run to and fro, and knowledge shall be increased.'

Mark Twain about the Jew:

“If the statistics are right, the Jews constitute but one percent of the human race. It suggests a nebulous dim puff of star dust lost in the blaze of the Milky Way. Properly the Jew ought hardly to be heard of, but he is heard of, has always been heard of. He is as prominent on the planet as any other people, and his commercial importance is extravagantly out of proportion to the smallness of his bulk. His contributions to the world's list of great names in literature, science, art, music, finance, medicine, and abstruse learning are also away out of proportion to the weakness of his numbers. He has made a marvellous fight in the world, in all the ages; and has done it with his hands tied behind him. He could be vain of himself, and be excused for it. The Egyptian, the Babylonian, and the Persian rose, filled the planet with sound and splendor, then faded to dream-stuff and passed away; the Greek and the Roman followed, and made a vast noise, and they are gone; other peoples have sprung up and held their torch high for a time, but it burned out, and they sit in twilight now, or have vanished. The Jew saw them all, beat them all, and is now what he always was, exhibiting no decadence, no infirmities of age, no weakening of his parts, no slowing of his energies, no dulling of his alert and aggressive mind. All things are mortal but the Jew; all other forces pass, but he remains. What is the secret of his immortality?”

Abra-Cdabra Hebrew Letters ( sounds turn to Objects)

This energy, at the level of mind, takes onthe form of a thought, which then descends to the realm of emotion where itcongeals into a sound. From here the sound congeals further until it manifestsitself in the physical realm as a letter. The letter is therefore a representation of one of the 22 primordial power interactions woven into the fabric that creates theuniverse.The Hebrew vowels, which enable the letters to manifest different sounds,correspond directly to the sefirot themselves. Each sefirah has its own “vowel”sound. Through a combination of the base sefirah (vowel) and he interconnecting sefirotic paths, we have the primordial sounds which underlie allcorporeal and non-corporeal nature.

Ezekiel Chapter 38 יְחֶזְקֵאל

א  וַיְהִי דְבַר-יְהוָה, אֵלַי לֵאמֹר.	1 And the word of the LORD came unto me, saying:
ב  בֶּן-אָדָם, שִׂים פָּנֶיךָ אֶל-גּוֹג אֶרֶץ הַמָּגוֹג--נְשִׂיא, רֹאשׁ מֶשֶׁךְ וְתֻבָל; וְהִנָּבֵא, עָלָיו.	2 'Son of man, set thy face toward Gog, of the land of Magog, the chief prince of Meshech and Tubal, and prophesy against him,
ג  וְאָמַרְתָּ, כֹּה אָמַר אֲדֹנָי יְהוִה:  הִנְנִי אֵלֶיךָ, גּוֹג--נְשִׂיא, רֹאשׁ מֶשֶׁךְ וְתֻבָל.	3 and say: Thus saith the Lord GOD: Behold, I am against thee, O Gog, chief prince of Meshech and Tubal;
ד  וְשׁוֹבַבְתִּיךָ, וְנָתַתִּי חַחִים בִּלְחָיֶיךָ; וְהוֹצֵאתִי אוֹתְךָ וְאֶת-כָּל-חֵילֶךָ סוּסִים וּפָרָשִׁים, לְבֻשֵׁי מִכְלוֹל כֻּלָּם--קָהָל רָב צִנָּה וּמָגֵן, תֹּפְשֵׂי חֲרָבוֹת כֻּלָּם.	4 and I will turn thee about, and put hooks into thy jaws, and I will bring thee forth, and all thine army, horses and horsemen, all of them clothed most gorgeously, a great company with buckler and shield, all of them handling swords:
ה  פָּרַס כּוּשׁ וּפוּט, אִתָּם; כֻּלָּם, מָגֵן וְכוֹבָע.	5 Persia, Cush, and Put with them, all of them with shield and helmet;
ו  גֹּמֶר, וְכָל-אֲגַפֶּיהָ--בֵּית תּוֹגַרְמָה, יַרְכְּתֵי צָפוֹן וְאֶת-כָּל-אֲגַפָּיו; עַמִּים רַבִּים, אִתָּךְ.	6 Gomer, and all his bands; the house of Togarmah in the uttermost parts of the north, and all his bands; even many peoples with thee.
ז  הִכֹּן, וְהָכֵן לְךָ--אַתָּה, וְכָל-קְהָלֶךָ הַנִּקְהָלִים עָלֶיךָ; וְהָיִיתָ לָהֶם, לְמִשְׁמָר.	7 Be thou prepared, and prepare for thyself, thou, and all thy company that are assembled unto thee, and be thou guarded of them.
ח  מִיָּמִים רַבִּים, תִּפָּקֵד--בְּאַחֲרִית הַשָּׁנִים תָּבוֹא אֶל-אֶרֶץ מְשׁוֹבֶבֶת מֵחֶרֶב מְקֻבֶּצֶת מֵעַמִּים רַבִּים, עַל הָרֵי יִשְׂרָאֵל אֲשֶׁר-הָיוּ לְחָרְבָּה תָּמִיד; וְהִיא מֵעַמִּים הוּצָאָה, וְיָשְׁבוּ לָבֶטַח כֻּלָּם.	8 After many days thou shalt be mustered for service, in the latter years thou shalt come against the land that is brought back from the sword, that is gathered out of many peoples, against the mountains of Israel, which have been a continual waste; but it is brought forth out of the peoples, and they dwell safely all of them.
ט  וְעָלִיתָ כַּשֹּׁאָה תָבוֹא, כֶּעָנָן לְכַסּוֹת הָאָרֶץ תִּהְיֶה--אַתָּה, וְכָל-אֲגַפֶּיךָ, וְעַמִּים רַבִּים, אוֹתָךְ.  {ס}	9 And thou shalt ascend, thou shalt come like a storm, thou shalt be like a cloud to cover the land, thou, and all thy bands, and many peoples with thee. {S}
י  כֹּה אָמַר, אֲדֹנָי יְהוִה:  וְהָיָה בַּיּוֹם הַהוּא, יַעֲלוּ דְבָרִים עַל-לְבָבֶךָ, וְחָשַׁבְתָּ, מַחֲשֶׁבֶת רָעָה.	10 Thus saith the Lord GOD: It shall come to pass in that day, that things shall come into thy mind, and thou shalt devise an evil device;
יא  וְאָמַרְתָּ, אֶעֱלֶה עַל-אֶרֶץ פְּרָזוֹת--אָבוֹא הַשֹּׁקְטִים, יֹשְׁבֵי לָבֶטַח; כֻּלָּם, יֹשְׁבִים בְּאֵין חוֹמָה, וּבְרִיחַ וּדְלָתַיִם, אֵין לָהֶם.	11 and thou shalt say: I will go up against the land of unwalled villages; I will come upon them that are at quiet, that dwell safely, all of them dwelling without walls, and having neither bars nor gates;
יב  לִשְׁלֹל שָׁלָל, וְלָבֹז בַּז--לְהָשִׁיב יָדְךָ עַל-חֳרָבוֹת נוֹשָׁבוֹת, וְאֶל-עַם מְאֻסָּף מִגּוֹיִם, עֹשֶׂה מִקְנֶה וְקִנְיָן, יֹשְׁבֵי עַל-טַבּוּר הָאָרֶץ.	12 to take the spoil and to take the prey; to turn thy hand against the waste places that are now inhabited, and against the people that are gathered out of the nations, that have gotten cattle and goods, that dwell in the middle of the earth.
יג  שְׁבָא וּדְדָן וְסֹחֲרֵי תַרְשִׁישׁ וְכָל-כְּפִירֶיהָ, יֹאמְרוּ לְךָ, הֲלִשְׁלֹל שָׁלָל אַתָּה בָא, הֲלָבֹז בַּז הִקְהַלְתָּ קְהָלֶךָ--לָשֵׂאת כֶּסֶף וְזָהָב, לָקַחַת מִקְנֶה וְקִנְיָן, לִשְׁלֹל, שָׁלָל גָּדוֹל.  {ס}	13 Sheba, and Dedan, and the merchants of Tarshish, with all the magnates thereof, shall say unto thee: Comest thou to take the spoil? hast thou assembled thy company to take the prey? to carry away silver and gold, to take away cattle and goods, to take great spoil? {S}
יד  לָכֵן, הִנָּבֵא בֶן-אָדָם, וְאָמַרְתָּ לְגוֹג, כֹּה אָמַר אֲדֹנָי יְהוִה:  הֲלוֹא בַּיּוֹם הַהוּא, בְּשֶׁבֶת עַמִּי יִשְׂרָאֵל לָבֶטַח--תֵּדָע.	14 Therefore, son of man, prophesy, and say unto Gog: Thus saith the Lord GOD: In that day when My people Israel dwelleth safely, shalt thou not know it?
טו  וּבָאתָ מִמְּקוֹמְךָ, מִיַּרְכְּתֵי צָפוֹן--אַתָּה, וְעַמִּים רַבִּים אִתָּךְ:  רֹכְבֵי סוּסִים כֻּלָּם, קָהָל גָּדוֹל וְחַיִל רָב.	15 And thou shalt come from thy place out of the uttermost parts of the north, thou, and many peoples with thee, all of them riding upon horses, a great company and a mighty army;
טז  וְעָלִיתָ עַל-עַמִּי יִשְׂרָאֵל, כֶּעָנָן לְכַסּוֹת הָאָרֶץ; בְּאַחֲרִית הַיָּמִים תִּהְיֶה, וַהֲבִאוֹתִיךָ עַל-אַרְצִי, לְמַעַן דַּעַת הַגּוֹיִם אֹתִי בְּהִקָּדְשִׁי בְךָ לְעֵינֵיהֶם, גּוֹג.  {ס}	16 and thou shalt come up against My people Israel, as a cloud to cover the land; it shall be in the end of days, and I will bring thee against My land, that the nations may know Me, when I shall be sanctified through thee, O Gog, before their eyes. {S}
יז  כֹּה-אָמַר אֲדֹנָי יְהוִה, הַאַתָּה-הוּא אֲשֶׁר-דִּבַּרְתִּי בְּיָמִים קַדְמוֹנִים בְּיַד עֲבָדַי נְבִיאֵי יִשְׂרָאֵל, הַנִּבְּאִים בַּיָּמִים הָהֵם, שָׁנִים--לְהָבִיא אֹתְךָ, עֲלֵיהֶם.  {ס}	17 Thus saith the Lord GOD: Art thou he of whom I spoke in old time by My servants the prophets of Israel, that prophesied in those days for many years, that I would bring thee against them? {S}
יח  וְהָיָה בַּיּוֹם הַהוּא, בְּיוֹם בּוֹא גוֹג עַל-אַדְמַת יִשְׂרָאֵל--נְאֻם, אֲדֹנָי יְהוִה:  תַּעֲלֶה חֲמָתִי, בְּאַפִּי.	18 And it shall come to pass in that day, when Gog shall come against the land of Israel, saith the Lord GOD, that My fury shall arise up in My nostrils.
יט  וּבְקִנְאָתִי בְאֵשׁ-עֶבְרָתִי, דִּבַּרְתִּי:  אִם-לֹא בַּיּוֹם הַהוּא, יִהְיֶה רַעַשׁ גָּדוֹל, עַל, אַדְמַת יִשְׂרָאֵל.	19 For in My jealousy and in the fire of My wrath have I spoken: Surely in that day there shall be a great shaking in the land of Israel;
כ  וְרָעֲשׁוּ מִפָּנַי דְּגֵי הַיָּם וְעוֹף הַשָּׁמַיִם וְחַיַּת הַשָּׂדֶה, וְכָל-הָרֶמֶשׂ הָרֹמֵשׂ עַל-הָאֲדָמָה, וְכֹל הָאָדָם, אֲשֶׁר עַל-פְּנֵי הָאֲדָמָה; וְנֶהֶרְסוּ הֶהָרִים, וְנָפְלוּ הַמַּדְרֵגוֹת, וְכָל-חוֹמָה, לָאָרֶץ תִּפּוֹל.	20 so that the fishes of the sea, and the fowls of the heaven, and the beasts of the field and all creeping things that creep upon the ground, and all the men that are upon the face of the earth, shall shake at My presence, and the mountains shall be thrown down, and the steep places shall fall, and every wall shall fall to the ground.
כא  וְקָרָאתִי עָלָיו לְכָל-הָרַי חֶרֶב, נְאֻם אֲדֹנָי יְהוִה:  חֶרֶב אִישׁ, בְּאָחִיו תִּהְיֶה.	21 And I will call for a sword against him throughout all my mountains, saith the Lord GOD; every man's sword shall be against his brother.
כב  וְנִשְׁפַּטְתִּי אִתּוֹ, בְּדֶבֶר וּבְדָם; וְגֶשֶׁם שׁוֹטֵף וְאַבְנֵי אֶלְגָּבִישׁ אֵשׁ וְגָפְרִית, אַמְטִיר עָלָיו וְעַל-אֲגַפָּיו, וְעַל-עַמִּים רַבִּים, אֲשֶׁר אִתּוֹ.	22 And I will plead against him with pestilence and with blood; and I will cause to rain upon him, and upon his bands, and upon the many peoples that are with him, an overflowing shower, and great hailstones, fire, and brimstone.
כג  וְהִתְגַּדִּלְתִּי, וְהִתְקַדִּשְׁתִּי, וְנוֹדַעְתִּי, לְעֵינֵי גּוֹיִם רַבִּים; וְיָדְעוּ, כִּי-אֲנִי יְהוָה.  {ס}	23 Thus will I magnify Myself, and sanctify Myself, and I will make Myself known in the eyes of many nations; and they shall know that I am the LORD. {S}

Yoel Chapter 2-3

Joel Chapter 2 יוֹאֵל

א  תִּקְעוּ שׁוֹפָר בְּצִיּוֹן, וְהָרִיעוּ בְּהַר קָדְשִׁי--יִרְגְּזוּ, כֹּל יֹשְׁבֵי הָאָרֶץ:  כִּי-בָא יוֹם-יְהוָה, כִּי קָרוֹב.	1 Blow ye the horn in Zion, and sound an alarm in My holy mountain; let all the inhabitants of the land tremble; for the day of the LORD cometh, for it is at hand;
ב  יוֹם חֹשֶׁךְ וַאֲפֵלָה, יוֹם עָנָן וַעֲרָפֶל, כְּשַׁחַר, פָּרֻשׂ עַל-הֶהָרִים; עַם, רַב וְעָצוּם--כָּמֹהוּ לֹא נִהְיָה מִן-הָעוֹלָם, וְאַחֲרָיו לֹא יוֹסֵף עַד-שְׁנֵי דּוֹר וָדוֹר.	2 A day of darkness and gloominess, a day of clouds and thick darkness, as blackness spread upon the mountains; a great people and a mighty, there hath not been ever the like, neither shall be any more after them, even to the years of many generations.
ג  לְפָנָיו אָכְלָה אֵשׁ, וְאַחֲרָיו תְּלַהֵט לֶהָבָה; כְּגַן-עֵדֶן הָאָרֶץ לְפָנָיו, וְאַחֲרָיו מִדְבַּר שְׁמָמָה, וְגַם-פְּלֵיטָה, לֹא-הָיְתָה לּוֹ.	3 A fire devoureth before them, and behind them a flame blazeth; the land is as the garden of Eden before them, and behind them a desolate wilderness; yea, and nothing escapeth them.
ד  כְּמַרְאֵה סוּסִים, מַרְאֵהוּ; וּכְפָרָשִׁים, כֵּן יְרוּצוּן.	4 The appearance of them is as the appearance of horses; and as horsemen, so do they run.
ה  כְּקוֹל מַרְכָּבוֹת, עַל-רָאשֵׁי הֶהָרִים יְרַקֵּדוּן--כְּקוֹל לַהַב אֵשׁ, אֹכְלָה קָשׁ; כְּעַם עָצוּם, עֱרוּךְ מִלְחָמָה.	5 Like the noise of chariots, on the tops of the mountains do they leap, like the noise of a flame of fire that devoureth the stubble, as a mighty people set in battle array.
ו  מִפָּנָיו, יָחִילוּ עַמִּים; כָּל-פָּנִים, קִבְּצוּ פָארוּר.	6 At their presence the peoples are in anguish; all faces have gathered blackness.
ז  כְּגִבּוֹרִים יְרֻצוּן, כְּאַנְשֵׁי מִלְחָמָה יַעֲלוּ חוֹמָה; וְאִישׁ בִּדְרָכָיו יֵלֵכוּן, וְלֹא יְעַבְּטוּן אֹרְחוֹתָם.	7 They run like mighty men, they climb the wall like men of war; and they move on every one in his ways, and they entangle not their paths.
ח  וְאִישׁ אָחִיו לֹא יִדְחָקוּן, גֶּבֶר בִּמְסִלָּתוֹ יֵלֵכוּן; וּבְעַד הַשֶּׁלַח יִפֹּלוּ, לֹא יִבְצָעוּ.	8 Neither doth one thrust another, they march every one in his highway; and they break through the weapons, and suffer no harm.
ט  בָּעִיר יָשֹׁקּוּ, בַּחוֹמָה יְרֻצוּן--בַּבָּתִּים, יַעֲלוּ; בְּעַד הַחַלּוֹנִים יָבֹאוּ, כַּגַּנָּב.	9 They leap upon the city, they run upon the wall, they climb up into the houses; they enter in at the windows like a thief.
י  לְפָנָיו רָגְזָה אֶרֶץ, רָעֲשׁוּ שָׁמָיִם; שֶׁמֶשׁ וְיָרֵחַ קָדָרוּ, וְכוֹכָבִים אָסְפוּ נָגְהָם.	10 Before them the earth quaketh, the heavens tremble; the sun and the moon are become black, and the stars withdraw their shining.
יא  וַיהוָה, נָתַן קוֹלוֹ לִפְנֵי חֵילוֹ--כִּי רַב מְאֹד מַחֲנֵהוּ, כִּי עָצוּם עֹשֵׂה דְבָרוֹ:  כִּי-גָדוֹל יוֹם-יְהוָה וְנוֹרָא מְאֹד, וּמִי יְכִילֶנּוּ.	11 And the LORD uttereth His voice before His army; for His camp is very great, for he is mighty that executeth His word; for great is the day of the LORD and very terrible; and who can abide it?
יב  וְגַם-עַתָּה, נְאֻם-יְהוָה, שֻׁבוּ עָדַי, בְּכָל-לְבַבְכֶם; וּבְצוֹם וּבִבְכִי, וּבְמִסְפֵּד.	12 Yet even now, saith the LORD, turn ye unto Me with all your heart, and with fasting, and with weeping, and with lamentation;
יג  וְקִרְעוּ לְבַבְכֶם וְאַל-בִּגְדֵיכֶם, וְשׁוּבוּ אֶל-יְהוָה אֱלֹהֵיכֶם:  כִּי-חַנּוּן וְרַחוּם, הוּא--אֶרֶךְ אַפַּיִם וְרַב-חֶסֶד, וְנִחָם עַל-הָרָעָה.	13 And rend your heart, and not your garments, and turn unto the LORD your God; for He is gracious and compassionate, long-suffering, and abundant in mercy, and repenteth Him of the evil.
יד  מִי יוֹדֵעַ, יָשׁוּב וְנִחָם; וְהִשְׁאִיר אַחֲרָיו, בְּרָכָה--מִנְחָה וָנֶסֶךְ, לַיהוָה אֱלֹהֵיכֶם.  {פ}	14 Who knoweth whether He will not turn and repent, and leave a blessing behind Him, even a meal-offering and a drink-offering unto the LORD your God? {P}
טו  תִּקְעוּ שׁוֹפָר, בְּצִיּוֹן; קַדְּשׁוּ-צוֹם, קִרְאוּ עֲצָרָה.	15 Blow the horn in Zion, sanctify a fast, call a solemn assembly;
טז  אִסְפוּ-עָם קַדְּשׁוּ קָהָל, קִבְצוּ זְקֵנִים--אִסְפוּ עוֹלָלִים, וְיֹנְקֵי שָׁדָיִם:  יֵצֵא חָתָן מֵחֶדְרוֹ, וְכַלָּה מֵחֻפָּתָהּ.	16 Gather the people, sanctify the congregation, assemble the elders, gather the children, and those that suck the breasts; let the bridegroom go forth from his chamber, and the bride out of her pavilion.
יז  בֵּין הָאוּלָם, וְלַמִּזְבֵּחַ, יִבְכּוּ הַכֹּהֲנִים, מְשָׁרְתֵי יְהוָה; וְיֹאמְרוּ חוּסָה יְהוָה עַל-עַמֶּךָ, וְאַל-תִּתֵּן נַחֲלָתְךָ לְחֶרְפָּה לִמְשָׁל-בָּם גּוֹיִם--לָמָּה יֹאמְרוּ בָעַמִּים, אַיֵּה אֱלֹהֵיהֶם.	17 Let the priests, the ministers of the LORD, weep between the porch and the altar, and let them say: 'Spare thy people, O LORD, and give not Thy heritage to reproach, that the nations should make them a byword: wherefore should they say among the peoples: Where is their God?'
יח  וַיְקַנֵּא יְהוָה, לְאַרְצוֹ; וַיַּחְמֹל, עַל-עַמּוֹ.	18 Then was the LORD jealous for His land, and had pity on His people.
יט  וַיַּעַן יְהוָה וַיֹּאמֶר לְעַמּוֹ, הִנְנִי שֹׁלֵחַ לָכֶם אֶת-הַדָּגָן וְהַתִּירוֹשׁ וְהַיִּצְהָר, וּשְׂבַעְתֶּם, אֹתוֹ; וְלֹא-אֶתֵּן אֶתְכֶם עוֹד חֶרְפָּה, בַּגּוֹיִם.	19 And the LORD answered and said unto His people: 'Behold, I will send you corn, and wine, and oil, and ye shall be satisfied therewith; and I will no more make you a reproach among the nations;
כ  וְאֶת-הַצְּפוֹנִי אַרְחִיק מֵעֲלֵיכֶם, וְהִדַּחְתִּיו אֶל-אֶרֶץ צִיָּה וּשְׁמָמָה--אֶת-פָּנָיו אֶל-הַיָּם הַקַּדְמֹנִי, וְסֹפוֹ אֶל-הַיָּם הָאַחֲרוֹן; וְעָלָה בָאְשׁוֹ, וְתַעַל צַחֲנָתוֹ--כִּי הִגְדִּיל, לַעֲשׂוֹת.	20 But I will remove far off from you the northern one, and will drive him into a land barren and desolate, with his face toward the eastern sea, and his hinder part toward the western sea; that his foulness may come up, and his ill savour may come up, because he hath done great things.'
כא  אַל-תִּירְאִי, אֲדָמָה; גִּילִי וּשְׂמָחִי, כִּי-הִגְדִּיל יְהוָה לַעֲשׂוֹת.	21 Fear not, O land, be glad and rejoice; for the LORD hath done great things.
כב  אַל-תִּירְאוּ בַּהֲמוֹת שָׂדַי, כִּי דָשְׁאוּ נְאוֹת מִדְבָּר:  כִּי-עֵץ נָשָׂא פִרְיוֹ, תְּאֵנָה וָגֶפֶן נָתְנוּ חֵילָם.	22 Be not afraid, ye beasts of the field; for the pastures of the wilderness do spring, for the tree beareth its fruit, the fig-tree and the vine do yield their strength.
כג  וּבְנֵי צִיּוֹן, גִּילוּ וְשִׂמְחוּ בַּיהוָה אֱלֹהֵיכֶם, כִּי-נָתַן לָכֶם אֶת-הַמּוֹרֶה, לִצְדָקָה; וַיּוֹרֶד לָכֶם, גֶּשֶׁם מוֹרֶה וּמַלְקוֹשׁ--בָּרִאשׁוֹן.	23 Be glad then, ye children of Zion, and rejoice in the LORD your God; for He giveth you the former rain in just measure, and He causeth to come down for you the rain, the former rain and the latter rain, at the first.
כד  וּמָלְאוּ הַגֳּרָנוֹת, בָּר; וְהֵשִׁיקוּ הַיְקָבִים, תִּירוֹשׁ וְיִצְהָר.	24 And the floors shall be full of corn, and the vats shall overflow with wine and oil.
כה  וְשִׁלַּמְתִּי לָכֶם, אֶת-הַשָּׁנִים, אֲשֶׁר אָכַל הָאַרְבֶּה, הַיֶּלֶק וְהֶחָסִיל וְהַגָּזָם:  חֵילִי, הַגָּדוֹל, אֲשֶׁר שִׁלַּחְתִּי, בָּכֶם.	25 And I will restore to you the years that the locust hath eaten, the canker-worm, and the caterpiller, and the palmer-worm, My great army which I sent among you.
כו  וַאֲכַלְתֶּם אָכוֹל, וְשָׂבוֹעַ, וְהִלַּלְתֶּם אֶת-שֵׁם יְהוָה אֱלֹהֵיכֶם, אֲשֶׁר-עָשָׂה עִמָּכֶם לְהַפְלִיא; וְלֹא-יֵבֹשׁוּ עַמִּי, לְעוֹלָם.	26 And ye shall eat in plenty and be satisfied, and shall praise the name of the LORD your God, that hath dealt wondrously with you; and My people shall never be ashamed.
כז  וִידַעְתֶּם, כִּי בְקֶרֶב יִשְׂרָאֵל אָנִי, וַאֲנִי יְהוָה אֱלֹהֵיכֶם, וְאֵין עוֹד; וְלֹא-יֵבֹשׁוּ עַמִּי, לְעוֹלָם.  {פ}	27 And ye shall know that I am in the midst of Israel, and that I am the LORD your God, and there is none else; and My people shall never be ashamed. {P}

Joel Chapter 3 יוֹאֵל

א  וְהָיָה אַחֲרֵי-כֵן, אֶשְׁפּוֹךְ אֶת-רוּחִי עַל-כָּל-בָּשָׂר, וְנִבְּאוּ, בְּנֵיכֶם וּבְנוֹתֵיכֶם; זִקְנֵיכֶם, חֲלֹמוֹת יַחֲלֹמוּן--בַּחוּרֵיכֶם, חֶזְיֹנוֹת יִרְאוּ.	1 And it shall come to pass afterward, that I will pour out My spirit upon all flesh; and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, your old men shall dream dreams, your young men shall see visions;
ב  וְגַם עַל-הָעֲבָדִים, וְעַל-הַשְּׁפָחוֹת, בַּיָּמִים הָהֵמָּה, אֶשְׁפּוֹךְ אֶת-רוּחִי.	2 And also upon the servants and upon the handmaids in those days will I pour out My spirit.
ג  וְנָתַתִּי, מוֹפְתִים, בַּשָּׁמַיִם, וּבָאָרֶץ:  דָּם וָאֵשׁ, וְתִימְרוֹת עָשָׁן.	3 And I will shew wonders in the heavens and in the earth, blood, and fire, and pillars of smoke.
ד  הַשֶּׁמֶשׁ יֵהָפֵךְ לְחֹשֶׁךְ, וְהַיָּרֵחַ לְדָם--לִפְנֵי, בּוֹא יוֹם יְהוָה, הַגָּדוֹל, וְהַנּוֹרָא.	4 The sun shall be turned into darkness, and the moon into blood, before the great and terrible day of the LORD come.
ה  וְהָיָה, כֹּל אֲשֶׁר-יִקְרָא בְּשֵׁם יְהוָה--יִמָּלֵט:  כִּי בְּהַר-צִיּוֹן וּבִירוּשָׁלִַם תִּהְיֶה פְלֵיטָה, כַּאֲשֶׁר אָמַר יְהוָה, וּבַשְּׂרִידִים, אֲשֶׁר יְהוָה קֹרֵא.	5 And it shall come to pass, that whosoever shall call on the name of the LORD shall be delivered; for in mount Zion and in Jerusalem there shall be those that escape, as the LORD hath said, and among the remnant those whom the LORD shall call.

A Taste of Light was revealed to me Lag B'omer 2012

I have always been the type of person who looks for the deeper meaning of things. Usually to no avail I have been disappointed not being able to find the essence or truth accuracy reality of object matter, physical space or even ideas. I come from a shomer Mitzvos family and have a RJJ SI yeshiva grade school education so I had a taste for Torah beauty and enjoyment from it. ALWAYS??? .  I wore a “black hat” (it was really gray) to my barmitzva and wore it until 10^th grade where I switched from Sharei Torah monsey to MTA. From then on the decline became steeper. I eventually went to Neveh Tzion from 1998-2000 and started keeping shabbas and kosher to this day. I always wore tefilin even when not frum in action, but I was always a oxy moron and hypocrite being always frum at heart. People always said I was a good listener and I like to think of myself as thoughtful and considerate, generally speaking. I always felt a foul taste towards bad language and blatant shabbos desecration. I always loved the values of the torah even when on the outside I tried to prove otherwise. I was honest towards other, cool in status, popularwith friends , likeable by almost everyone especially other parents since my mother installed in my proper etiquette manors. , athletic, geshikd and clever, and used all these attributes deceitfully to portray my outward image. My love for learning and appreciation of torah and its values never absent , never missing, never not there. I My choice was just always the more rebellious of the options. I keep Shabbas and kosher and have a once a week shiur with Papa that has been going on since my wedding 10 yrs ago Oct 2012. This shiur with my beloved most respected darling most loved Papa has really been my backbone. He represents the product of KADOSH and the mesorah from Europe pre WW2. Even this became burdensome to me

            As the past 10 yrs progresses I B”H built a beautiful family with my special wife Pamela and get nachas every day from watching her and the 3 kids grow and develop grow and increase.

Although we have  always had a religiously demeanor appearance conduct and mannor, neverthe less our emunah was skiing a double black (steepest decline). The last few years especially have been low.  We never taught our sitter the proper ways of a kosher kitchen and our calim became questionable. Between the kids grabbing any utensil to bowl their cereal and one sink unavoidable. I became lax in my observance. Tefilin became a Burdon so I just threw them on. I hadn’t davened with a sidur and tefilin for a yesr…maybe two?  Last year I wore shorts on the street on shabbos and have been thinking to watch tv for a while now. We would go away to hotels and swim. My overall interest in religion was dwindling and exteriorly it felt great. But inside I was feeling the burn as tmy tires raced towards the  egel hazohav in the emotional sence. Not physical sence bc I never really had a passionate desire for worldy celebratory life style. So far the picture doesn’t sound too good at this point.

            I have been searching world events and realize appreciate and understand the signs that were all pointing from above and decipher the message to return. But for some reason the density of physicality catches us and gravitizes us toward the deepes tumah and unfoung discusts of phusicality and pornography. I became a womanizer and never fought with my  strongest physical desire dehydrated day in day out and both .  It filled my surroundings with negativity pessimism cynicism and sarcasm. I was enraged and blackened with tumah badness  and  I was spiritual  torn, ragged and exploded within me. I felt those negatively created spirits surrounding my home. ThI would contemplate an envisioned life without shomer Shabbat and lifted my hand to flirted with the remote.  I did not desecrate shabbos like that …yet…but became lazy idle ,and negligent  careless, inattentive and sloppy. I had 0 self esteem and  couldn’t understand what my fife saw in me. I was mean to her and  masked affection with anger. (this is my next hardest obstacle).

            May 10, 2012 Lag Bomer

            I was surfing the net for untold unknown theories such as pole shift weather patterns always connected world events to Israt and knew everything would eventually WW3 come down to Israel. Often I web surf to Israel news or Jewish sites and I came across Rshbi. I had a Gemarah shiur so often came across the name ( I also passed out drunk at his kever  in my neveh days so maybe nowthat I am writing this  there may be more connection than I thought…or however you want to interpret that …there with me so I read an article on him and the holiday

What happened to me next is on a level of its own that has no description, no picture,  that night was like nothing I have ever felt so strongly  IN MY LIFE.

I was sucked in like engulf  a babys nursing grip, druling fore more and more like a drooling dog, a gambler feaning for the next hand, a swimmer gasping for air, passionate obsessive, excitement, enthusiasm, truth, honesty,  real, genuine and exact factual to my venerable self of the Torah. I was overwhelmed and 100% overtaken and overcome by this spark of energy that swallowed me in happily. A glimpe of light has been exposed to me and Hashem chose that exact time to reveal this force.

 It was  wedding day excitement championship valor spiritual engulfment I was enlightened and invigorated . My mind opened and received the tiniest sliver and taste of pure spiritual satisfaction. I was in no way in meditation but only sitting at my computer reading about the chag. The CHAG CAME TO LIFE FOR ME. I NOW know that Lag Bomer is a secret special and spectacular day that the hidden secrets and blueprint of the torah were received by rashbi from Eliyahu hanavi. The numbers patterns ideas flow influence geometry calculations physics  gravity

I was plugged in full turbo. My mind was working at 1000% higher rate. The content of what now after I reflected on some of what I noted seems to be “regular” divre torah. The gematrias and pesookim from all over tenach were clicking in my mind Iwas understanding everything and the flow of knowledge faucet opened up for me. The excitement and joy pleasure happiness delight and bliss connected and genuine pumped my fists  and grinned my teeth in satisfaction. It engulfed every emotion  I have ever felt and sucked me in embraced me. I was coherent was was going on and was giggling in laughter and pleasure by just observing and externalizing what I was feeling. No matter what I read online IT ALL  worked together.

Imagine a basketball team where individual satisfactory players bond and work together to win the underdog championship. Now imagine that they played so well together that physically their bodies just moved to the right spot on the court with success. Now you can imagine a slight outerbody experience where you can mentally observe whats happening. Now imagine that 1000x fold. That is what I was feeling. My bodily expressions were joyous in laughter. I know this sounds silly but my eyes really opened and my being has been different since then. I have been chasing that feeling ever since but not quite yet. The droplets do build up and I have really taken the inititive to

Now that I had this awareness exposed to me (which is really what happened) I have been striving to learn more and more from every possible angle to feed my yearning. I have awakened and trying to feed my starving neshama. neshama which is much deeper than everyday living ruach. Ruch as physicall awareness. Every day life and day to day consciousness. Neshama is something much deeper. Its more understandable in todays terminology as your “subconscious”. But I think its even more that that and goes much deeper. Your neshama is a totally differenct consciousness level that related to the mystical and intangible worlds. All the learning reading and searching I definitely at this point don’t understand  but Its been food for my neshama.  My neshama feeds off the words and ideas that to the physical mind seem so unrealistic and made up. But let me tell you that it really doe exist. Ever get that feeling where your on such a high? Family simcha, sports endeavor, love? There is something deeper than the plain physical ruach. Most people don’t even realize that they have this extra level of their being. Physicallity is co concentrated and condensed at our level of malchus that people are absolutely blinded to spirituality.

In any case ,ever since  Lag Bomer I have been spending every moment I could to feed my starving and calling neshama. Its invigorated with in me and trying to resurface. I stay up until 2-3 AM daily feeding with torah, sod articles online, tefillah, torah shebal peh, and tehillim. I was trying to improve with every day of the sefirat haomer to grow closer and for the first time in my life (besides my wedding day) I was preparing my mind religiously for a specific event. I had a week or two until Shavuot which is known as the wedding b/w hashem and the jews. I was delving my mind constantly trying to create separation between my spitirul neshama and physical body and ruach. I do feel that I gained a nautal love and appreciation , deeper than the average person. So I was preparing for the wedding day ( shacharit tefilaf after tikun leil Shavuot) By the time Shavuot night came I was the first person waiting for the chabad shul doors to open . I couldn’t wait to get my feet wet and start to invigorate and spark my consciousness getting ready for shacharit. I feel I did an ok job and by the time davening came I was totally psyched and ready for the davening experience of my life and a spiritual growth! I reviewed all my kaballah notes that I have been taking since lag bomer, listened to shiurim, said tehillim, learned gemarah, chumash, and sid the 13 ani maamims. Unfortunatly I was extremely disappointed in the tefillah. The congregation had one thing on their minds BED. They were up all night and exhausted so the tefilah set world records in speed. I was pages behind when I started simultaneously.  Kedusha and Hallel was speed through with not even 1 song. I felt rushed and was actually quite upset with the crowd who were talking and rushing just going though th motions so they can hit the sack quicker. I was outraged and crying inside. I felt hurt and abandoned but now I realize that I should have picked another shul for this particular tefillah so the disappointment is in myself. I now 


I first heard you speak at neveh in 2000 and have not been reaching my religious abilities until this past Lag Bomer a few weeks ago where a taste of the SOD of torah was shown to me on the secrets of Rashbi and the hidden light. I was salivating and overly excited with every breath and motion of my body! I have always been searching for something greater...by reading the news...etc and have always realized the bigger picture and futility and baseness of most american jews who robotically go through motions and practice Judaism. I was personally to embarrassed to even daven to hashem since I was "malei boosha" and too embarrassed to even show my face to the creator. Since then (lag bomer) I feel reborn and have been up to 2-3 am every single night desiring to do teshuva and searching for ways to come closer to hashem in understanding the WORDS AND LETTERS of my tefilos/ torah/ and tehilim/ and by researching kabalistic ideas to connect me to my creator. I am now doing everything I can to open my mind to receive and prepare myself for the Geulah of that day "bayom hahu". I do need someone to talk/ connect/ vent to since I have no one here that I feel comfortable enough with that wont think I am crazy. I do plan to tell my wife whats been going on with me the past month but I am afraid she will not take me so seriously. I have many thoughts that I have been meaning to write down and this email if really the first expression of my feelings that I have exposed to anyone on this planet. If you have any suggestions for me please tell me. I plan to start writing my thoughts and what opened my eyes and maybe start a bog site? I want to do my part to spread the word but I need to continue working on myself to prove to ME that this is a lasting inner revolution. If you are interested to read what i will write please let me know. I am a laymen and far from a scholar but I feel that I need to get it out there and maybe through you I can be enlightened in the derech to continue. This morning I saw your music video and LITERALLY cried out to hashem with my tehillim and read pasuk 2:11.