Nov 13,2012 daily ledger and my daily torah learning

Nov 13, 2012 Tuesday.
Alarm rings 7:20 AM, Open my eyes,  Modeh Ani , jump out of bed, wash hands,  wake kids a few times for bus. Breakfast  eggs and coco pebbles. Ozzy happened to not take a nap the day before so he went to bed early last night, so he was up early and awoke with the other kids. Bus top, walk coco, change Ozzy make bottle. Lay back down 7:55 AM. Say shema bizmano and sleep till almost 10 am. Yikes! Wake up lay tefilin, daven,. Say the daily Aliyah in the weeks parsha:  yaakov leaving avimelech , digging the 4 wells (their names  Eisek, Sitnah, are apparent in the second line of 42 letter name Ana Bkoach). People couldn't tell diff be Abraham and Yizchok bc they looked so alike and humans appearance didn’t age, no wrinkles until now. People thought Yitzchak was Avraham  bc Hashem made their facial features similar. Yitzchak was 100x fold successful in his harvest so he was very rich and starting to overshadow Avimelech. Avimelech coveted rivka and everyone knew she had no children with Yitzchak so they left avimelech.   Perhaps people thought Yitzchok was unviable and not Rivka. Now that they were gone yizhok could be the only one who conceived with Rivka. The people wouldn't think it was avimelechs child. Avrahom Died 5 years before his time  so he wouldn't see the evil ways of asav.
…Wrapped up my Tefilin and Talis, Washed up caught bus to train. Learned rashi on paraha while waiting on corner with my iphone. Said Tehillim tikun haklai on train. Very meaningful today and took me the entire 22 minute ride ( it can be said in 5-7 min fast). Went to safe picked up goods for the day. Bought marlboros and a box of donuts for Carlos the polisher who was kind enough to buy me coffee last week ... Dropped and picked up a few jobs for my dad , Waited for elevator in my building 71W and pulled out my iphone.I just took upon myself another small task of halacha yomi so looked up todays halacha (my second day of starting Halacha yomi): You can't ask for blessing for business in numbers or inventory. You cant say for example  “this business should have 100 pcs of inventory ,but one should only mispalel for a general request for blessing. Yesterday's halacha was more interesting. It dealt dealt with proper use for shul and it's building . The halacha depends on how it benefits the kahal.

Elevator doors open and I kiss the mezuzah on the door post to my outer office door.  Ta and I dealt with a particularly odd customer situation. Yossi the jeweler  downstairs had a call for a 30k emerald 2.5. The owner of the stone is in the DDC club who don't deal with nor have have patience for retail customers. He gave my dad a hard time just showing the stone and wanted a $500 ridiculous “viewing fee”. He ended up coming  to our office to show trhe stone to the customer, who didn't appreciate the unnecessary rude pressure. Not to mention the stone had nicks from over the yrs and needed repair. All the uncertainty the customer had to commit to a stone on the spot under pressure and needed rework scared this guy off. Customer passed. It almost seemed like the owner specifically didn’t want to sell the stone…?  Otherwise 2 nice calls today 1 for asscher 7 ct eternity band and 2^nd was a repeat customer for studs.

Pamela and I reached out to a yoetzet halacha for out nida questions after her recent unfortunate andd heart breaking episode where we lost the baby and not to mention Pamela herself gave us a huge scare losing 2pints of blood that night. Hopefully we can follow the Halacha stricter to the law (eventhough over the years we have kept taharas hamishpacha) inorder to  conceive a child within the halchas parameters. The past few weeks have been crazy physically and emotionally but now it's time to reestablish some concrete structure and get back on track. In the afternoon I gave $18 to tzedaka as I try to give a little at least once a day.  I do intend to go to mikvah tomorrow as a back on track gesture and clear my negative demons, for the time being ,that battle me 24/7 in the toughest daily battle. I hope she wants to improve together with me in this matter as I do, and in every other matter too. We have become ten times closer lately and I know that she will feel its TRUTH and its structure ,and its importance to follow properly as IT IS  the key to my sanity, both physical and spiritual. Is that selfish of me? Sorry if so but the torah does want a husband to cleave to his wife. I also watched some world news about Israel retaliating to During Syria shell spillover the border into Israel. Are they doing it Intentionally?  Maybe
I Davened mincha at 4:00 PM with good kavana at Dykman’s minyan, jam packed. Dad left early for JEC car pool. Watched some paraha gematria and read some parsha drav Torah… Caught 6:25 PM train home ( got on the correct train tonight since last night I tried to leave early and on the train got carried in thought regarding Brit Milah kavana. I ended up in Tarry town 20 miles north of my stop and finally arrived home 3 hrs from when I left the office). I used the (normal ride 22 min) train ride read my tehillim chapters 41-45… got home kissed Pamela , ate rice for dinner, Did Chumash homework with Kobe about lot and melachim in  chaye sarah.  Kobe Ozzy and I Then we watched the Knicks as a treat start season 5 and 0 best in the League while mikaela showed me her new hoola hoop tricks… Then took a bath with Ozzy got kids ready for bed. Davened maariv Read a post about how now tha Obama won the election he will totally turn on Israel and the us economy is predicted to tank very low.

Once everyone was asleep I Prepared for my shiur with papa. Checked back of papa’s papa gemorah for meforshim on makkot 22b. Learning about striking 40 lashes or 39. Bimispar Arbaim and not Arbaim alone leaves the way to darshun only 39. Gemorah says How Dumb are people that they stand up when a sefer Torah is taken out But not stand for a Talmud chacham when the rabbi is only trying to lessen the sentence to 39, not give the harsh 40 of the torah. I Looked up and found a source for amazing Dvar Torah that papa I think came up with on his own about our gemorah in Makkot. Just before this mishna of 39 vs 40 rav yoshiA and a gemorah in bechorot 33a rashi divrei hamschil “Vieeduch” where rashi says I don't know where to find him rav Oshiya. That's bc in makkot rashi passed and his son I. Law wrote. commentary. Can it be that rashi  in bechorot wasn't farmiar with our gemarah in makkot? Rashi learned 10 times shas before writing his commentary?  I took a picture of the page and will show papa איש. אהרון יוחנן שןופלד. That he came up with this pirush.

Eli and I had an hour or two long conversation since he is moving to Alaska for his wife's temp job. He is learning guitar so I showed him a scale and he nailed it. Good job. He has potential. Then I said sham al hamita and laid with a crying Ozzy while he squished and squirmed until finally falling back asleep Finally now it's 2:28am and I am exhausted especially since I was up also last night till 2am looking for deeper meaning into the torah and my life.  I do wish constantly that I can find more active ways to do chesed for others on a daily basis.